"Remember all the broken pitiful people that God chose to be His "characters" in His Book? I think He would have chosen us too!! Wait a minute, He did!



I keep having to look at the bigger picture (God's picture) and the whole thing makes more sense to me. He wants us broken on a trying journey toward Him. So, then I say, well then, We are doing/going through just what we need to do that!! Mission accomplished! It is the only way we grow in Him. We are much too selfish to grow in Him when all things are well and good. So, I consider myself lucky." -- Karen



So it seems, "my logical plan", summarized to a few words: "if only she'd do it our way" is not going to work! In the larger view, God's plan IS the journey we're on, the humbling and suffering, bending to His will. "Thy will be done." For us, acceptance is as painful as giving up our own plan/hopes as it must be for Sarah giving up her "will" and confused wandering.



That leaves a question or two. Is acceptance the only answer, a la, "Ok, what will be will be" and do nothing at all? Offer support and encouragement, but leave Sarah's decisions to her knowing that God will work His plan? Just pray?



After the events of this week we're pretty concerned about relapse. Sarah and her girl friend have left the boy's house and stayed at a hotel "with a reputation." The owner of the HHs called Susan to update her with his concerns and to offer that Sarah could live in any of his houses. I think he went the extra step. Curiously, he asked why we didn't "bring her back home" so we could watch her.



There's something to ponder. Even the thought of S&S under the same roof has Susan churning about the friction, conflict, and chaos. The inevitable battle of wills while Dad tries to mediate, or in my own way, make things worse! (So much for noble intentions! Proof that my plan isn't the answer!) Even if they lived in somewhere in Michigan, it is apparent that Sarah has moved on and the parental guidance is so "yesterday!".



Yet, if the worst fear - death, becomes reality, we are haunted by the question: Did we do all we could? We continue to seek God's plan and will.